It seems I have spent a good portion of my life starting. Starting school, starting work, starting driving, starting college, starting relationships, starting having kids, starting new job, starting having more kids, starting, starting, starting, etc, etc, etc.

There is nothing wrong with this, however if one gets caught up in it, one can forget to experience life. One can forget about the journey, and just look for the start and finish line. So as of today (actually a couple weeks ago, but I am just now writing about it, so we will pretend it is today) I am not going to start anything...

This does not mean that I will not do anything new; on the contrary it will be the exact opposite. I will be seeking out new things to try and experience. To really live life and enjoy all the wonderful things there is to offer. I will not be “starting” anything, cause that denotes I will be “finishing” something. Instead I am going to be experiencing everything.

This revelation, which has been building over the last several months, if not the last year, has caused me to take stock in my current living situation. Why do I live where I live, why do I work where I work, why do I regularly do nothing over the weekend (and irritate the wife since I have become boring… :). I do not have all the answers yet, and just may never, but I do know that some of those decisions will be changing.

Of course everything changes, so in turn our life will evolve and potentially never look as we expected. But what I am talking about is not the standard evolution of change in our life, but the forced change to set my life (and the whole family) into a new direction. On the surface a very simple thing, however in implementation it is very scary. Especially since I tend to over analyze… This does NOT facilitate making a decision that is impossible to know the outcome. Those types of decisions require you to look both ways (for anything obvious) and then jump.

My decision has been made and now I am jumping. Only time will tell how it works out. But even with the unknown I am not scared, nervous sure, but not scared.